Daily Prophets
Day 211
“Jonah remained in the fish’s belly 3 days and 3 nights. Jonah prayed to God from the belly of the fish. He said: In my trouble I called to God and God answered me. From the belly of Sheol I cried out and You heard my voice. I thought I was driven away out of your sight…the waters closed in over me…Yet You brought my life up from the pit, Adonai, my God.”(Jonah 2:1,2,5,6,7)
It took 3 days and 3 nights for Jonah to realize what was going on and to pray to God, one might say. Another way to read this is: it only took 3 days and 3 nights for Jonah to realize what he had done and to pray to God for redemption, salvation and release. Either reading works, depending on where one is at in their lives. I prefer to read it both ways at the same time.
On the one hand, Jonah was a prophet who heard the call of God, who was given a task he ran away from, who cause pain and suffering for the crew who took him onboard ship and slept like a baby as the ship was falling apart from the tempest God sent. He wanted so badly to run away from God that he asked the crew to throw him overboard in the hopes he would be eaten by a fish and die. That it took him 3 days and 3 nights to realize what was happening seems incredulous given his ability to hear God’s words. On the other hand, Jonah was a person like all of us, he could hear the call of God, as we all can when we listen and are connected to our soul, and Jonah was afraid to follow the call of God for a myriad of reasons, which is true for so many of us. His reasons will become clearer later and, like all of us, he was unable to bring himself to listen to the call of God, the call of his soul to take the next right action. Yet, after he was left to himself inside the fish, in the prison of his own making, it only took 3 days and 3 nights to realize what he needed to do, pray to God, acknowledge that only with God could he find life, redemption, rescue.
Oh, if it only took all of us 3 days and 3 nights to realize our predicaments, the outcome of our actions and the trouble we find ourselves in for running away from our true self, our true work, from running away from being transparent, from accepting what is rather than trying to make fantasy come true. If it only took 3 days and 3 nights to realize how our need for power and money, prestige and selfishness, mendacity and deception brings about destruction and negates the call of God and harms the soul of another(s). Of course, we don’t realize we are living in the belly of the fish most of the time, we don’t realize we have been swallowed up by our resentments, our self-deceptions, our negativity and so it only taking 3 days, as we enter the new year, would be fantastic and noble.
Yet, Jonah is not taking responsibility for his situation. He says he called out from his trouble without saying how he caused his trouble. He is grateful that he wasn’t driven out of God’s sight, that he was brought up from the pit, yet he cannot bring himself to admit that all of this was caused by his actions. How many times are we ready to blame God, another human being, etc for our troubles? I know of people who are constantly being the victim and, while praying and meditating on God’s goodness to and for them, try to be crafty, using the vulnerabilities of another(s) against them to get their way, to ‘win’ at any and all costs so they can claim their righteousness, just as Jonah seems to be doing with his inability to take his responsibility. So many people forget the people who God sends to help them, to save them, they forget the times God has sent them a ‘Eureka’ moment of insight and clarity and think they are entitled to their self-interests at any and all costs. Rabbi Heschel teaches us, to paraphrase him, the interests of another(s) have to be our concerns. We, like Jonah, have to realize our call from God to help not hinder another, to care about not destroy another, and to let go of our self-seeking, power-hungry, get even ways of leaving.
In recovery, we acknowledge our part in every interaction, positive and/or negative. We are in recovery because we are aware of how our actions/inactions led us to a place where our only hope was to call out to God and hear God’s call back to us. We are living examples of the Jonah experience, we were in the pit, the depths of despair, loneliness and isolation and cried out to God and we were heard and saved. God brought us up out of the pit and restored us to life, to wholeness and to service. In recovery, we know our destiny is to serve and to redeem those who still suffer.
I have taken longer that 3 days and 3 nights to see that I am in darkness, the pit, despair, anger and resentment as well as hurt and sadness and betrayal at times in my life. Yet, I am acutely aware of God hearing my call from the depths of all of these experiences. Because I am connected to God, self and another(s), these are not emotions, they are experiences in which I am immersed. I can only leave these negative experiences, be saved from their imprisonments by calling out to God and to the people with whom I have a covenantal relationship, not a transactional relationship with. Discerning the difference has been the teaching of 5781 and releasing myself from the mendacity is the plan of 5782. I cry out to God and God hears me, I am saved by God’s love and the love of family, covenantal friendship and truth. I pray the same for you in 5782! Stay Safe and God Bless, Rabbi Mark