Ghosting God, Ghosting Self
Day 94
Rand Paul gets his revenge by referring Dr. Fauci to the DOJ for exercising his constitutional rights, Trump goes after Birthright Citizenship again, El-Sayed is being pummeled by Islamaphobia, by AIPAC, Hegseth is being supported by Trump again, Cuba is being treated inhumanely by Rubio et al, hatred spews from the Republicans and the Socialist Democrats, and Max Miller, a horrific human being, still is running to keep his house seat! All the news that’s fit to print is the news that We the People continue to see, participate in, be indifferent, and/or be enraged by what is happening in our name by the idolators, charlatans, grifters in power.
El-Sayed needs to make his stand on Israel much clearer, he needs to explain his anti-semitic statements, because just as with the fascists on the right, those on the left should not be in power in America. We the People fended off the Fascist push by Coughlin, Ford and Lindbergh in the 1930’s/40’s and We the People are being called upon by the Voice from Sinai to fend off this latest onslaught of hatred, of prejudice, of power grabbing, of using the words of Christ, the words of the prophets, the words of Moses to weaponize their inhumanity towards human beings. It seems so clear to me and I am at a loss to understand how good people can still fall for the lies, the deceptions, opening up their beings to the “cancer of the soul” that is becoming an epidemic once again. We fought a Civil War when this cancer was at its worst epidemic proportions, we thought, and now we know this was just a resting time for the parasites who revel in spreading Cancer to We the People because they believe once we buy into the lies, once we experience this cancer, we will have to go to them for the cure which, according to them, is more hatred, more violence, more war, more profit for the few while the many suffer with no medical care, no insurance, no savings, and the cost of living keeps rising so Trump and his people can make more, more, more, as the song goes.
Having visited Cuba on a cultural mission, I can attest to the amazing creativity, talent, kindness, and longing to be free of the Cuban people so Rubio’s efforts to hurt them, to make it more difficult for them to have food, etc is horrendous-all to make up for his parents leaving the Island rather than staying and fighting Castro? AIPAC getting so involved in political campaigns that it is causing more anti-semitism even among the people who also support the candidates they are supporting makes sense in what reality? That ‘fine christian nationalist gentleman’ Mike Johnson thinking it is a good thing that Max Miller is being accused of spousal abuse, hurting his child and is not kicking him out of the caucus because, I guess, Republicans don’t mind the macho-man, toxic masculinity, nor do they mind when a ‘woman is put in her place’? I am at a loss to understand this double standard, ha, ha!
The difference between reality, defined as what is happening right now, and TRUTH makes my head spin. The cognitive dissonance that happens when putting these two real experiences together is mind-boggling, irrational and can only be reconciled through my soul. I, like so many, have to stop my constant movement, my mind from going a million miles a minute, and allow my soul to engage with my negative inclination, my baser self so I can discern what the next right action is, needs to be. It is hard when there are so many voices within me and outside of me clamoring to be heard, trying to drown out the “still small voice” of God, of knowing. It is hard to allow myself to do what “I know in my bones” is true and right because I can’t prove it to anyone, I can’t even prove it to myself and societal norms dismiss anything that can’t be “proven”, hence the non-reliance of God, on spiritual truth, on spiritual disciplines, relying solely on the weaponization of God’s words through Moses, the Prophets, Jesus, Mohammed, et al. Each day I wrestle with this dissonance and each day, just when I believe I have it reconciled, some new assault on Truth, on Freedom, on Decency, on Love, on Kindness, on Compassion happens and, I am back in the shit again.
The only solution that works for me is to live into the words of Habakkuk 3:19: “God is my strength… God guides me to high places”. When I allow God’s guidance, when I acknowledge that my strength comes from God and I am obliged to use this strength to serve God, to serve another(s), to rise up from my worst ways of being to being decent, life is wonderful, the dissonance recedes and I find ways of being okay with those I disagree with, I am at peace with those who shun me. It is a hard road to get here, I have worked hard over the years and I am realizing my own errors throughout my life, making amends that are overdue and I am just becoming aware of them, and not concerning myself with the response or non-response of those I have sent my T’Shuvah to.
ACTION STEPS:
How are you keeping God as your guide rather than your mind/another
God Bless, Stop Ghosting God, Ghosting Self, Rabbi Mark