Ghosting God, Ghosting Self
Day 73
Returning to the theme of ignorance, I find remarkable that people who were so aware of what someone ‘did’ to them, are so ignorant of what they do to another human being and that they are doing the same things they accuse another(s) of! Or at least they claim to be, ha ha! Be it on the global stage, the nation stage, the state stage, the local stage, the home live in, the people we work with, the lean of human beings to be ignorant of the greater good, ignorant of what their minds rationalize as bad when ‘you’ do it and good when ‘I’ do it is beyond belief.
The 2020 election bullshit is once again in the news and the IGNORANT media is covering it! The making Israel a pariah nation while forgetting what Hamas, Hezbollah, Iran, the Arab countries have done to it is a way of IGNORANCE. Not standing up for what the Constitution says, demands, while proclaiming their patriotism is SOP for liars, idolators, etc-buying into it by We the People is IGNORANCE AND WILLFUL BLINDNESS. Yet, here we are again, as we the people have been for the millennia. Be it Ancient Israel in the time of Joel who calls to us to “tear your heart, not your clothes”. What the hell is he talking about? Instead of tearing our clothes, as we do when in mourning, and now replaced by a ribbon, we the people need to be tearing our hearts, cutting away the foreskin, the hardness that has covered our hearts so our country doesn’t perish, our ideals do get bastardized, our connection to God, to one another doesn’t die. The problem stems, of course, from our lack of inner life, our lack of inner dialogue, our lack of wrestling with our opposing inclinations, holding our fears in abeyance long enough to make a “free-will moral choice”, which in Rabbi Dr. Abraham Twerski’s view, is what makes us humans and not animals nor angels.
We the People are being IGNORANT of what is going on inside of us, what our intuitive mind is telling us, what our souls are calling to us to do, ignorant of hearing God’s voice from Sinai calling out to us. This is, the fundamental issue/problem, the place where responsibility lies, at the feet of We the People! Ignoring our own inner needs, ignoring the claims of our souls, ignoring the demands of our guts, leaves the door open to the lies of self-deception and deception by another(s), leaves the door open to forgetting who we are, our job to be a “light unto the nations”, that we have been chosen for a particular purpose that no one else can fulfill and it is waiting for us. Ignorance IS NOT BLISS!
I have a sign that someone gave me, “If you would be smarter, I would be nicer”, to remind people that “dumbing it down”, acting like “a dummy” is an affront to the person you are speaking to and an affront to your self, it is another subtle, not so subtle way of Ghosting Self and Ghosting God. Feigning ignorance, answering questions with “I don’t recall”, trying to make everyone else ignorant for your own benefit, these are all ways that prove one has not “tear you heart” yet. The stubbornness of the human being, the ridiculous holding on to the lies of our rational minds, the belief that ‘my money, my property, my ….’ Will protect me is IGNORANCE on steroids! Yet, we persist in these false ways that have been proven false, we continue to resist the path of spiritual wellness, spiritual guidance, spiritual maturity and rely on our past so we can stay ‘stupid’, stay stuck in the past, so we can roll around in our ignorance like a pig in shit! WTF
I know these ways of being, well. I lived them for over 20 years, I had an open heart, I had a deep curiosity and then, upon the death of my father, the bullshit of people who told me how to feel, the immense pain I experienced, I closed my heart, I decided to join the club of liars, of scam artists, of “get ahead at any cost”. I failed miserably in this club because I could not commit to these ways of being fully, completely, my father’s and grandfather’s voices were in my head, my uncle and aunt who I adored were talking to me and I knew I couldn’t go over to the dark side wholly, and I couldn’t live with the lies of the ‘light’ side. I felt my father’s, my family’s dilemma and couldn’t resist either pull. It was hell and I knew it-until that fateful day in December of 1986, when God called to me, slapped me awake, threw water on my face and I woke up, I let go of my IGNORANCE, I admitted that I needed help, that I needed to stop running and face me, face God, face the world. I was/am better than the ignorant asshole who was sitting in jain, on his way to prison, AGAIN! This led to finding my voice, finding my place and the rest, as they say, is history. I check in on the “tear your heart” each day and watch it widen and my heart be more open.
ACTION STEP:
Make a list of what you are still willfully blind to. Make a list of the areas you are still ignorant in and is your ignorance willful because you really do know better or is it willful because you haven’t wanted to see what truly is
GOD BLESS, STOP GHOSTING GOD, GHOSTING SELF, Rabbi mark